Why I Workout

Okay,  so, here is the dealio, I am going into my second round of camp gladiator and my sixth week of consistent workouts, gaining at least five workouts in a week. I have gotten several weird looks when I say, "Oh yeah, I work out about five times a week," they expect me to just be a small person because I workout. I never really understood this mindset, but most people associate size with our exercise and diet. I mean sure, it is ALL a factor, but at the end of the day my biggest, BIGGEST pet peeve is,

"How much are you wanting to lose?"

Well, uhm, that is not my mindset anymore. Numbers, numbers, NUMBERS. Numbers seem to run our health, weight, pants size, and waist size. Numbers do not describe me, how I feel about MYSELF defines me. 

You know what, if this is your mindset then more power to you, I just know personally, I do not look like I weigh as much as I do. My weight that I would need to be to not be considered "overweight" is definitely not really attainable, I have not been that size since freshman year of high school. After a baby, depression, and currently breastfeeding, my body is not the same. My hips are a little wider, my waist is not as small, and I have stretch marks like everywhere. I could easily scare you into never having children if I showed my stretch marks, I mean come on, I can't be tall, pretty, and smart right? God had to make it fair. I kid, I kid, maybe.

 As a common courtesy, do not ask about a weight loss journey unless they bring it up, I know I reached pre-pregnancy weight and I am working on being a better version of myself. 

These weeks have been humbling, tiring, and empowering. 

Am I dying? ABSOLUTELY.

Do I doubt myself some days? ABSOLUTELY.

Do I sometimes want to skip my workout and go right back to sleep? Well I mean of course, 4:30 am is not pretty for anyone, 

This was actually encouraged by one of my awesome trainers, she is the proof that numbers are just that, numbers. 

Why I workout is because I want to be healthier, why I pass on the fries and bread is because I want to be healthier. Not just physically, but mentally I am so much better off than I was a few weeks ago before I knew some amazing people. 

Monkey see, Monkey do, besides myself my motivation is Marli. I am hoping she will be able to join me for workouts in a few years and I can be the example she needs as her mom. 

Being a single teen mom, I mean obvi I do not get a whole lot of time to myself, but workout is what I look forward to almost every single day. People call me weird, but I mean which is better for you? Negativity? Absolutely not. 

Things may not be bright right now, you may be hurting, you may be going through a hard time, but you WILL get through whatever you are going through. It WILL make you stronger and there is ALWAYS a rainbow after the storm.

Looking back, I am really proud of how I look now and how far I have come!

Short, sweet, and pretty much to the point today. Do not forget, spread positivity one day at a time!💓

-Laurin, the "Me" in Marli and Me 

Long Time, No Blog

So, uhm it has been like three months since my last blog. I have had plenty of drama, school, and positive events in my life. I started eating low carb again and I am in my fourth week of Camp Gladiator, it is fun and challenging. I am pretty excited to get back into shape.

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I will soon be considered a sophomore in college after this semester and I recently was added to the Dean's List of my college, as well as invited to join the Phi Theta Kappa Honor Society. I do not mean to toot my own horn, but I am extremely proud of myself and what I have accomplished. My big goal that I am trying to achieve is perfectly on track right now. 

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We had a birthday party in March for one of our good friends Sloane, her mom and I are good friends and eventually the girls hopefully will be too. 

Marli's new favorite food is a cupcake, if you could not tell. 

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I know, everyone is itching to hear about the main humor for my blogs, or lack there of. I have been on a few dates, definitely a step up from where I was, but I am pretty content on where I am. I am a busy girl, I have hardly any time for my blogs let alone a boyfriend. I mean come on, when you have a daughter as cute as mine, nobody has time to deal with boys. 

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Most people know I have a best friend, his name is Kyle and we have been friends for YEARS, so I was messing with him how I wanted a promposal. Well, he came through so I have a pretty awesome date and fun fact, we went to our first homecoming game together back in 2011.

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So, it is short and sweet, nothing exciting, but I wanted to break my silence because honestly I missed it and love my little blog here. Make your life positive one day at a time, it gets better and one rough year should not define who you are. 💓

-Laurin, the "Me" in Marli and Me