Coffee, Coffee, and more Coffee

I would like to elaborate on something. College is not harder than high school at least for me anyways, I have taken 2 finals and I still have 4 to go. My week is packed, on Tuesday I have a 2 hour long exam for math, Wednesday my Theatre final is due, Thursday I have my comp final and my history final.

I am exhausted just thinking about it honestly. I just need to make it through this week and I will feel so accomplished, last year at this time I was uber pregnant and still preparing for Marli to come around. I am now almost done with my first semester and I have already registered for my next semester.

Marli's second trip to the Stockyards was a success!

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My challenge from last week, I accomplished it! Sort of? I mean it was Facebook and messaging but it counts right? It is a big step for me. 

I also informed my parents that if I could marry myself  I would, cause lets be honest there is nobody as perfect for me is myself. 

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So, I always like to say I have no friends, well, that is a lie. I realized this weekend I have more friends than I give credit. I have friends from theatre, from tennis, and a lot of people still in high school. We are just in different points, but when we get the chance we do socialize and I love when we do get that small amount of time. So, to them, thank you!

This weekend has been bittersweet. The people I went to high school with, my senior class this year, they had their fall show.  It was supposed to be my last fall show. I loved seeing everyone, but I also wanted to just crawl in a corner and cry because I was supposed to be up there with them. I know that is how the majority of this school year will go. 

I am not sad I had Marli. I am sad with everything I gave up, I still continue to sacrifice everyday. I am the only one that has sacrificed and still do. It sucks. It is the only thing I can say on it, it sucks. 

Take advantage of everything, I didn't expect for my sophomore year to be my last fall show. Theatre meant so much to me and still does till this day. I guess for me I did not get the closure I wanted, I didn't get to do every one's "lasts." No last first day, no last fall show, no last football game, no last tennis match, and no senior year. 

It sucks. 

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On a positive note I passed a test I didn't finish 3 out of the 20 questions and forgot 2 formulas. Hallelujah!

I have had a few people come to me about writing a short story. Here is my dilemma. I can write, sure. I am not creative though, like, at all. 

I am not a violent person, but there are a few people in this world that I would really like to throat punch. Just a few people, like the guy that cut me off in traffic, compulsive liars, and whoever it was that got the last cake pop at Starbucks. 

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I got to wear shorts today. On December 11, 2016, I WORE SHORTS. I was wearing my letterman on Saturday and shorts on Sunday. I was enjoying the cold. Well played Texas, well played. 

Countdown, 16 days till my baby is 1. I am still only like 5 minutes pregnant. Like honestly how is life moving this fast? How is this even possible. 

Also I am on day 20 that my tinder app hasn't worked. How am I supposed to find Prince Charming now? (TOTALLY JOKING) But for real, I enjoy telling guys the only nudes I am into are heels and lipstick. Definitely gets a reaction everytime, and a block. DISCLAIMER: Never have I actually met anyone off this ratchet site. 

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Remember, go out of your way to be positive, give a compliment, and make your life more positive one day at a time.💗

-Laurin the "Me" in Marli and Me💓